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Faramir [Lord of the Rings] ([personal profile] ifishouldreturn) wrote2011-05-23 06:43 pm

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The morning of Faramir's last day on Middle-earth dawned fair and bright. Though his heart was heavy and the knowledge that had been given was a great burden to bear, he could think of no finer day on which to say his goodbyes.

He had woken to find Minas Tirth bathed in the warm oranges and reds of the sunrise, turning the white spires and towers of the citadel into pillars of brightest gold. For a moment, all he could think of was how much this city - the city of his birth and the only home he had ever known - meant to him and how he would give anything to protect it from the enemies that surrounded it.



A moment later, he realised that he would soon sacrifice his very life for the sake of Minas Tirith. Very soon.

He knew that the thought was not a flight of fancy or a dream that had remained with him after waking. It was a fact. A solid and immutable piece of knowledge that he could not and would not question.

This was the last sunrise that he would ever see. By nightfall, he would be dead.

Faramir did not fear death. (In many ways, this was not the first time he had faced it. It was simply the first time that he had faced it with such certainty.) He had resigned himself to it the first time that he had rode out of Minas Tirth to face the allies of the dark tower. Although he would have liked to see Gondor at peace once more, he would gladly give his life so others could see such a future. His only regret was that he would leave his men without a leader in times of great danger and that his father would be left entirely alone.

***

A little after he had broken his fast, a guard hurried to Faramir's chambers with a summons from his father. As he hastened to answer it, Faramir wondered how he would react to what was to come. Denethor had made it clear on many occasions that his youngest son - his only living son - was nothing but a disappointment to him. He was still grieving for Boromir and was unlikely to waste his tears on someone else. It was Faramir's own sense of duty that kept him at Denethor's side, not the loving relationship between father and son.

As he crossed his father's chamber to speak to Denethor - who, at first, did not register Faramir's approach or look up from his breakfast - the capricious device that connected him to the community switched itself on. Though it was in his pocket and no image could be seen, the conversation that followed was broadcast clearly enough.

"You summoned me, my lord?"

"Yes. You have been idle for too long. You are to ride out at once. I wish to know if the enemy is moving."

"Father, my men are not yet rested. We returned from the south only yesterday."

"You have your orders, Faramir. Do not disappoint me in this as you have in so many other things."

"It has never been my intention to disappoint you. I want only what is best for Gondor."

"I am the Steward of Gondor. I decide what is best for this city." Unseen, Denethor's lip curled into an expression of disgust. "Your brother would not have hesitated."

"Perhaps I will join Boromir soon," replied Faramir, a little more softly, "And you will no longer have to endure my presence."

"Perhaps." The idea was not greeted with sorrow or regret. If he was ever to relent and admit his love for his youngest son, Faramir would not be alive to see it. "Until then, do what you can to avoid displeasing me."

There was a great deal more that could be said, on both sides of the conversation, but, in the end, Faramir spoke only to bid him farewell.

"Goodbye, father."

"Be ready to ride out within the hour."

The recording ended and Faramir left the hall in silence.

He would never see Denethor again.

***

Immediately after giving his men their orders, Faramir returned to his chambers to prepare for the journey. His last journey. After a brief moment of deliberation, he placed his strange communication device on his table, intending to lock it in his trunk before departing. He did not want it to fall into the wrong hands and he doubted that Denethor, if he ever decided to examine his son's possessions, would bother to search through the scrolls and parchments of a scholar to find the device hidden between them.

As he fastened his dark green cloak about his shoulders, the device switched on again. He had been deliberating whether he should bid farewell to the community before leaving Minas Tirith. When he turned back to the table and realised what had happened, he was far from surprised.

"It seemed that the community has made my decision for me," he noted, picking the device up. "I was not permitted to leave without bidding you farewell."

[identity profile] womanofvalor.livejournal.com 2011-05-26 10:27 pm (UTC)(link)
She had not wished to reveal the embarrassing truth to him, and too late did she realize her error. Éowyn hesitated before saying, "It is a wicked habit of our links to the community, I believe. If not for these opportunities to speak with you and my brother, I would have banished mine completely." Yet she would not.

His revelation came not as a surprise to her, but still it pained her to hear him say it. "You are a Captain of Gondor," Éowyn said. "I see in you strength and skill difficult to surpass, even by the mightiest in our land. I believe that you will."

[identity profile] ifishouldreturn.livejournal.com 2011-06-01 05:01 pm (UTC)(link)
The fault was not Éowyn's and Faramir could no more blame her for observing the conversation than he could blame her for the fact that it had occurred.

"And a reminder that the community serves it's own interests, not ours alone. There are times when that is easy to forget."

Particularly when he was speaking to Éowyn.

Though he could not believe her words - his strange certainty was too strong for that - Faramir was moved by her words. For a moment he was silent, simply savouring it.

"Thank you, my lady. Perhaps you are right. I do not wish to leave the battle before the end. Or before I have been able to speak to you without the use of this strange technology."

[identity profile] womanofvalor.livejournal.com 2011-06-02 04:36 am (UTC)(link)
"Gondor will suffer your absence," she told him, certain that she was right. "As would all Men once the battle comes. Forgive me for speaking plainly, but I do not think you should so lightly think of yourself or your abilities, my lord. I do not doubt that there are many who love and respect you, and think only the best of you." Herself included, if she were to be honest.

Éowyn gave him a look, before hesitantly smiling at him. "I would gladly welcome the company of the Captain," she said. "As would my brother and my King. My uncle would be most glad to meet you, even if I do not think I could so adequately explain how it is that I know of the Lord Faramir when I have yet to step out of Rohan."

[identity profile] ifishouldreturn.livejournal.com 2011-06-03 07:09 pm (UTC)(link)
“You have no cause to ask for forgiveness.” Quite the opposite, he was glad that she felt comfortable enough to speak to him freely. (He wondered if things would be the same if they had met under different circumstances, without the intermediary of the community. He liked to believe that they would be.) “I am grateful.”

Her faith in him was both welcome and unexpected. It was worth more to him that he could ever truly explain.

“For his own sake, we would have to conceal the truth of the community from him.”

[identity profile] womanofvalour.livejournal.com 2011-06-04 07:43 am (UTC)(link)
She nodded. "Once he is well, and free of evil influence I shall gladly tell him about our discovery. I have no doubt he will share in our joy and confusion with it. But until then..." Éowyn allowed a moment to dwell in her thoughts, before shaking her head. "But let us not speak of it now. You are to leave and I wish you a safe journey, and a triumphant return."

Then, "And if you would allow it, I would wish that Rohan, too, would benefit from whatever news you shall bring." Trouble came to the Mark through Isengard, but it was foolish to believe that the threat ended there.

[identity profile] ifishouldreturn.livejournal.com 2011-06-06 05:38 pm (UTC)(link)
He would not return. He had ridden into battle more times than he could count and he had often faced dangers beyond the compression of many, but he had never felt this strange certainty before. It was not necessarily that he thought his men would fail in their task. It was simply that he would not return to Minas Tirith to savour their victory.

But one look at Éowyn's countenance prevented him from telling her as much. He did not want to cause her sorrow. He did not want to see her grief when there was nothing he could do to offer her comfort.

“Of course, my lady. We are allies as well as friends.”

[identity profile] womanofvalour.livejournal.com 2011-06-07 01:27 am (UTC)(link)
She smiled at him. "I am glad to hear it. Thank you, my lord. I shall look forward to speaking with you again."

[identity profile] ifishouldreturn.livejournal.com 2011-06-12 09:21 pm (UTC)(link)
"And I to you," he said, with an inclination of his head. It did not hurt to hope that he would see her again. If anything, his hope might give him the strength to overcome the strange prophecy that had darkened his morning. "I hope I will have good tidings to share."